Friday, September 16, 2011

DOT 105 ; HELPLESS

THE FINAL CHAPTER : A SPIRITUAL JOURNEY (Sept 2009 to Jan 2010)
At the Grotto of Our Immaculate Conception, in Lourdes   
Daniel (14+ years old) (Tuesday 15/9/2009) 
Day 6 in Lourdes … 
4th day in Hospital (Pao) (late evening) ...
 
Despite pushing all frightening thoughts out of her mind, a quick glimpse of your Aunt Tracy's white casket, still managed to creep into her head. 
She was overcome with hysteria and thought she would lose her mind as she felt her Son slowly slipping away from her. No matter how hard she tried to grasp or tighten her grip on him, she could feel him slipping away.
That night, Dad and Mom cried and cried and cried.
While holding each other, we cried some more. 
The situation had seemed impossible. 
What were we to do?
What could we do?
We finally came to the decision that if God wanted to take You, we would not stand in the way. We had no choice but to surrender You totally to Him. We did not know what else to do.
We were so helpless. 
We were totally at a loss, like we had come to a dead end. 
Truly, a dead, dead end. 
That God has after all given us 14 wonderful years, that in the medical world, You were a miracle wonder ... 
On that premise alone, we tried to comfort ourselves and count our blessings, quite unsuccessfully. 
How many times has your doctor back home told us that patients with your diagnosis do not do half as well as You? You were initially given a life sentence of only 6 months, when You were diagnosed with the dot at 7 years old. It was later stretched to 18 months. God extended that to 14 years.
Was that not miracle enough?
 
 Shine your rays on Daniel, Lord, and keep him safe 
under your care for all eternity.